An Open Letter To Myself On Bad Mental Health Days
To keep with the theme from last week, I wanted to write today about my own mental health. After making several attempts to write a blog about it, I decided that I wanted to write a letter to myself when I’m having a bad mental health day. I don’t know about you, but when my depression starts to get out of whack, I experience extremely bad days. On these days, I don’t feel motivated to do anything or see anyone. I crave the warmth of my bed and dread leaving it before the early afternoon. So I decided to write a letter to myself to reference on my bad mental health days. Maybe it can help you too!
To me (on a bad mental health day),
I know that you’re having a hard time today, but that’s okay. You don’t have to feel good everyday. Sometimes there will be bad days that cast a shadow upon the days filled with joy. It’s fine; it happens. All that matters is what you do with those feelings.
I know that you don’t feel like getting out of bed and doing whatever you have planned for the day. But you have to. You can’t waste your life away, sitting in your bedroom. You need to get up, get dressed, and get out there.
It may feel impossible right now, but trust me when I say that you will thank me later. You feel worse about yourself on the days you don’t make the achievement of getting out of bed. So do yourself a favour and push yourself to do this. Trust me when I say that you will thank me later.
Are you out of bed now? Good. Make sure that you give yourself some time to make or buy food for breakfast. You don’t feel better when you skip meals. Remember that.
You don’t have to do a lot today, just do enough that you can say that you looked your depression in the eye and told it to go away. Start to take back the control over your life. Don’t let anything hold you back.
And please, most importantly, ignore that pesky little voice on the inside of your head that tells you that you want to be alone. You really don’t. But you will force people to leave you alone and then be upset that you’re lonely. You have to push through.
Acknowledge that voice and do what you actually want to do. It may not happen at first, it may take listening to that voice once to figure out what you want. After you listen to the voice, figure out what upset you about that situation. If you’re upset that you’re alone, then don’t have alone time. I know it’s easier said than done, but also listen to the voice that talks second on your bad days. The first voice, on days like these, is always depression. The second voice, the suppressed one, is yours. Listen to that one.
Don’t let depression control you. Don’t let it ruin your day. Fight it constantly, never accepting defeat.
If you do these things, your bad days won’t feel so awful.
I love you and believe in you.